Drowning 2022 10 27 0230H

I feel I am slowly losing myself.

I had a suspicion that this would happen.

But nothing is ever free.

My family gives me so much joy.

Hugging my kids make me thank God I am alive.

But, What is this dread that I am feeling.

Two things have never left me since I’ve heard/watched them.

John Mayer’s Stop This Train I want to get out

and Before Sunset’s “Life is about fighting for meaning”

The past 5 years were extremely hard.

I had to fight for what I have right now.

I had to swallow my pride and muck it up in the estero.

But, because of this I am facing this situation.

Basic needs met, now facing existential dread once again.

What will I see when I walk this unknown path.

Silent Scream!!!!

Trouble Sleeping 2022 10 09

I woke up last night a few minutes shy of midnight.

I woke up with this heavy feeling of dread.

was only able to sleep around 1PM while driving to my wife’s parents house.

Still feel uneasy. I don’t know why.

Monthly Check-in I will be doing 2022 06 25

I got this from one of the mail groups I subscribe to.

I’ll try to do it at the end of each month

  1. What *matters* right now in my life? Am I dedicating the necessary energy to it?
  2. Are my current systems and habits aligned with my long-term goals? If not, what adjustments can be made to get into alignment?
  3. What activities are draining my energy or causing me to lose focus?
  4. What am I dreading or actively putting off completing?
  5. Are there any toxic habits or relationships that I need to immediately eliminate from my life?

rePost: Traveling abroad with young kids: Our approach

Solid advice here:

Traveling abroad with young kids: Our approach

A friend asked this on Twitter, and it got me thinking about our approach. To a lot of people, unless it’s a resort, taking kids abroad sounds challenging, expensive, and anything but rejuvenating. We’ve found the opposite. Our foreign trips are easier, cheaper, and more more rewarding and replenishing than our US holidays. Gradually, over regular trips to Latin America, a few Western Europe visits, as well as Canada and Vietnam, we’ve figured out some things that work for us. On the chance they work for you too, here’s our list.

Find the family Venn. I like to investigate unfamiliar, off-the-beaten path locales, eat amazing food, and have time for reading. Jeannie prizes beauty and sun and calm. Our kids want swimming, zip lines, animals, chicken nuggets, and pancakes. There is not a whole lot of overlap here. The trick is to find places that intersect a little each day. For instance, we’ve found that as long as the kids get regular swimming and adventure parks, they’ll tolerate the grownup excursions. It took us several trips to get the intersection right (and of course the kids shift as they grow older). So, be patient, and look at the inevitable failures and moments of misery as a learning experience for the future.

Traveling abroad with young kids: Our approach – Chris Blattman

Web3 now?


I have made quite a bubble for myself. 
Web 3 can either be within that bubble or outside that bubble.
Building within my bubble is comfortable and chill.
Building outside of my bubble is full of uncertainty.

What should I do?

Need to meditate and decision journal this out.

Small Dev Victories 2021 12 16

I was able to use a plain old Javascript library within our POC built using Angular JS. We never tried this before with over a decade of using Angular JS I always opted to either find a native library or build it fr ground up. We actually did around 2014 because had to use Java to interface with a biometrics amd card reader.

Why I like workplace Japanese Shows

My wife asked me what I was watching and I answered I am watching another Japanese workplace show.

She asked me why I like shows like that?

Japanese workplace shows are technical so you learn quite a bit and they are relatively simpler in plot and I can be less emotionally invested.

COVID Scare 2021 10 07 1041H

observing things. Kuya J and his whole family; who fetched Ate S from QC is, is positive with COVID.

Waiting for symptoms before we get tested.

Right now assuming, preparing, and acting as if we are positive too.

Prayers