I feel I am slowly losing myself.
I had a suspicion that this would happen.
But nothing is ever free.
My family gives me so much joy.
Hugging my kids make me thank God I am alive.
But, What is this dread that I am feeling.
Two things have never left me since I’ve heard/watched them.
John Mayer’s Stop This Train I want to get out
and Before Sunset’s “Life is about fighting for meaning”
The past 5 years were extremely hard.
I had to fight for what I have right now.
I had to swallow my pride and muck it up in the estero.
But, because of this I am facing this situation.
Basic needs met, now facing existential dread once again.
What will I see when I walk this unknown path.
Silent Scream!!!!