A Right Proper Rightist Party

Analysis and Opinion By JoeAm I was looking into Akbayan as a possible formal party alternative to the pinks and yellows who seem to have dissolved into the loser’s mist. Akbayan has a center-left approach, and their objectives are wholesome. Better jobs, education, health care, and so forth. But they only spend money. Not raise […]

A Right Proper Rightist Party

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By JoeAm I’ll be putting the blog on suspension for a time. When I started writing years ago, social media was just beginning to emerge as the untamed, informative, and often dirty place it has become. There were only a few of us engaging regularly in this discussion forum or that. Now life itself seems […]

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Drowning 2022 10 27 0230H

I feel I am slowly losing myself.

I had a suspicion that this would happen.

But nothing is ever free.

My family gives me so much joy.

Hugging my kids make me thank God I am alive.

But, What is this dread that I am feeling.

Two things have never left me since I’ve heard/watched them.

John Mayer’s Stop This Train I want to get out

and Before Sunset’s “Life is about fighting for meaning”

The past 5 years were extremely hard.

I had to fight for what I have right now.

I had to swallow my pride and muck it up in the estero.

But, because of this I am facing this situation.

Basic needs met, now facing existential dread once again.

What will I see when I walk this unknown path.

Silent Scream!!!!

Trouble Sleeping 2022 10 09

I woke up last night a few minutes shy of midnight.

I woke up with this heavy feeling of dread.

was only able to sleep around 1PM while driving to my wife’s parents house.

Still feel uneasy. I don’t know why.

Monthly Check-in I will be doing 2022 06 25

I got this from one of the mail groups I subscribe to.

I’ll try to do it at the end of each month

  1. What *matters* right now in my life? Am I dedicating the necessary energy to it?
  2. Are my current systems and habits aligned with my long-term goals? If not, what adjustments can be made to get into alignment?
  3. What activities are draining my energy or causing me to lose focus?
  4. What am I dreading or actively putting off completing?
  5. Are there any toxic habits or relationships that I need to immediately eliminate from my life?