running away

I don’t know
I don’t know seems like running away is the easiest and most rational thing to do but I feel that it’s not for me.
I know I’ve said that I’m okay, but every time I see her I’m not.
It’s just who I am, I am a the kind of person whose blood still boils from an insult as far back as the 3rd grade.
I just never learned to forget, what I know hot to do is to replace.
Replace memories with other memories , but how can you replace when you just can’t find any emotion not anger.
I’m trapped between replacing the previous emotion with another emotion, and I care too much to replace that thing with anger. I’d rather be in hell.
just want to forget, can i just run away?