Category: personal AnGoL

Mark usually went home for the weekend but didn’t last sunday so Me, Chuck and Mark decided to hang out in trinoma. I was late around 30 minutes. I didn’t tell them but I was nearly in fight before I went to trinoma.
Suffice to say this blog post Isn’t about my near physical altercation with someone. Nope this isn’t
Let’s see, I am a fairly introspective person. I have the tendency to over analyze things.

The warrior has memories, but he learns how to separate the useful from the unnecessary; he disposes of his emotional rubbish.By Paulo Coelho

And this was no exception. It made me try to remember all of the times that I was mad or in rage. I tried hard to try to remember those times, because I had a hunch that I did not learn from past mistakes that I was repeating myself.
I initially thought that Iget mad easily but this is just a lie I tell myself.
The truth is when I get mad I am most probably suppressing something more painful, something that I continue to lie to myslef about. This rage eventually bubbles up and is unleashed on something that I have no problems feuding with.
Taking the long view my moments of rage are separated by months to years. The problem is I end up feuding with the wrong people and only adding people to my ignore list. This cannot continue. I cannot continue to lie to myself about painful things. I have to face these harsh realities and learn to heal myself. I must learn to let the hate go. I cannot change people but I can change how I react/ineract with them. I can be a better human being. I can be the calm in the middle of the storm. I’ve made inroads in this personal quest, but it seems not enough.

Back in 1998 I argued that the Bank of Japan needed to find a way to “credibly promise to be irresponsible.” That didn’t go down too well, but it was what sober, careful economic analysis prescribed.
Or as I said in the linked paper,
The whole subject of the liquidity trap has a sort of Alice-through-the-looking-glass quality. Virtues like saving, or a central bank known to be strongly committed to price stability, become vices; to get out of the trap a country must loosen its belt, persuade its citizens to forget about the future, and convince the private sector that the government and central bank aren’t as serious and austere as they seem.
Macro policy in a liquidity trap (wonkish) – Paul Krugman Blog – NYTimes.com.

“Every American has a right to affordable, high-quality health care,” Mr. Baucus said. “Americans cannot wait any longer.” Far from being a distraction from efforts to revive the economy, he said, “health reform is an essential part of restoring America’s economy and maintaining our competitiveness.”
Senator Takes Initiative on Health Care – NYTimes.com.

I have to confess that I have this character failing that I am slowly trying to change, Its a combination of not wanting to waste time (from ikiru–“I don’t have that kind of time”) and somewhat being bored with establishing context for effective communication. I think its a patience thing!

And Summers, like Paulson, is really bad when he has to talk to people he doesn’t respect.
Against Summers – Finance Blog – Felix Salmon – Market Movers – Portfolio.com.

Damn, I want to fall in love, need to get out of this cursed over rationality!

When he first said this, it sounded kind of crazy to me. What does it mean to say that people are addictive?
Then I thought more about it, and I think he is right. Falling in love is the ultimate addiction. There is no question that in the early stages of attraction, spending a little bit of time with someone makes you desperately want more. Infatuation can be all-encompassing, and people will do anything to make a relationship blossom. They will risk everything and often end up looking utterly foolish. Once in a relationship, however, the utility one derives from time with the beloved diminishes. The heady excitement of courtship gives way to something much more mundane. Even if a relationship isn’t that good, for at least one of the parties there is a painful withdrawal period.
Gary Becker Thinks the Most Addictive Thing Is – Freakonomics – Opinion – New York Times Blog.

and simply put, engineering boards for up students are not the same for non up students,
Its a way for people to show aptitude when studying in places where aptitude for a student isn’t a given
(think other state u’s or non-1st tier educational institutions).
As tipz has already stated at least in the Philippines UP students get the benefit of the doubt even with horrendous transacripts of records.
I think the example of this is if you go to other countries where UP students does not have a reputation for excellence and thus do not get the benefit of the doubt. They usually take certification exams of different sorts to prove at least a minimal level of competence.
I imagine an MIT/Stanford grad is not asked SCJP results when applying for CS jobs, but people from UP are, just expound on this.
And if you love programming you’d probably feel the same about the programming certifications as you feel for the Electronics Board Exams.
I’d say this is how the world works and you have to live with it.
I know its frustrating, and it is in some ways a waste of time.
I somewhat had a change of heart whilst writing this.
The younger batches should thank you because of your honesty.
You can create your own path.
But that would entail sacrifice, work in another country where the license is worth nothing, do your masters or create your own company.
I am rambling sorry , lack of sleep.
In conclusion, sorry if nobody told you the how worthless the board exams is, and what other paths you might have taken.
Thank you for starting the conversation.
This too shall pass.