{"id":777,"date":"2008-11-25T21:15:33","date_gmt":"2008-11-26T02:15:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/onthe8spot.com\/?p=777"},"modified":"2008-11-25T21:15:33","modified_gmt":"2008-11-26T02:15:33","slug":"hot-head","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/onthe8spot.com\/index.php\/2008\/11\/25\/hot-head\/","title":{"rendered":"Hot Head"},"content":{"rendered":"

Mark usually went home for the weekend but didn’t last sunday so Me, Chuck and Mark decided to hang out in trinoma. I was late around 30 minutes. I didn’t tell them but I was nearly in fight before I went to trinoma.
\nSuffice to say this blog post Isn’t about my near physical altercation with someone. Nope this isn’t
\nLet’s see, I am a fairly introspective person. I have the tendency to over analyze things.<\/p>\n


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\nThe warrior has memories, but he learns how to separate the useful from the unnecessary; he disposes of his emotional rubbish.By Paulo Coelho<\/strong><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

And this was no exception. It made me try to remember all of the times that I was mad or in rage. I tried hard to try to remember those times, because I had a hunch that I did not learn from past mistakes that I was repeating myself.
\nI initially thought that Iget mad easily but this is just a lie I tell myself.
\nThe truth is when I get mad I am most probably suppressing something more painful, something that I continue to lie to myslef about. This rage eventually bubbles up and is unleashed on something that I have no problems feuding with.
\nTaking the long view my moments of rage are separated by months to years. The problem is I end up feuding with the wrong people and only adding people to my ignore list. This cannot continue. I cannot continue to lie to myself about painful things. I have to face these harsh realities and learn to heal myself. I must learn to let the hate go. I cannot change people but I can change how I react\/ineract with them. I can be a better human being. I can be the calm in the middle of the storm. I’ve made inroads in this personal quest, but it seems not enough.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Mark usually went home for the weekend but didn’t last sunday so Me, Chuck and Mark decided to hang out in trinoma. I was late around 30 minutes. I didn’t tell them but I was nearly in fight before I went to trinoma. Suffice to say this blog post Isn’t about my near physical altercation … <\/p>\n

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