{"id":1716,"date":"2009-08-11T03:24:00","date_gmt":"2009-08-11T08:24:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/onthe8spot.com\/?p=1716"},"modified":"2009-08-11T03:24:00","modified_gmt":"2009-08-11T08:24:00","slug":"thinking-of-oneselfchasing-after-the-wind-aardvarchaeology","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/onthe8spot.com\/index.php\/2009\/08\/11\/thinking-of-oneselfchasing-after-the-wind-aardvarchaeology\/","title":{"rendered":"Thinking Of Oneself::Chasing after the Wind : Aardvarchaeology"},"content":{"rendered":"

I only ask the very hard question , or rather I only try to answer the HARD questions during my birthday, which as more than a week ago, I’d be lying if I thoughts like this didn’t enter my mind.<\/p>\n

I was brought up to believe that I am special. I was told that I am unusually smart and gifted. Whether or not this is true, it has given me a deep-seated expectation of myself to do great(ish) things, to achieve a bit more than the average Joe<\/a>, to stand out from the crowd, to gain recognition.
\nMost people of course achieve very little that is noteworthy beyond the solid humble everyday victories of a quiet life. I’m sure that most people do not have a sense that this is in any way insufficient. I’m also sure that many of these average achievers have talent and potential far beyond that needed to live a standard life. They just don’t expect of themselves to do any more than the average person. I believe they are by and large content.
\nThe skills and training I have are not much sought after. There is very little professional demand for me. This clashes badly with my grandiose ideas about myself. I achieve things that I am proud of on a small one-man-project scale, but few care, and I gain little recognition. I am frustrated.
\nvia Chasing after the Wind : Aardvarchaeology<\/a>.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

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